I'm trying to be helpful, and my computer is giving me the spinning circle of death.
I'm trying to download a screen recording that I'd just finished, so that I can upload it to LinkedIn and share it with some people and maybe one person will find it useful.
It's not working.
I want to break stuff.
This morning, I'm in a Google Hangout meeting and before I know it I'm cursing and screaming at my stupid computer for being the unbelievable piece of s**t that it is.
My connection is unstable.
I have to go into my meeting in 5 minutes.
The meeting goes OK.
I decide to go for a run, and I turn on my Spotify app... nothing. Nothing. It's not working.
I'm just trying to listen to a f**king podcast so I can get some sense of normalcy back into my life.
I'm tempted to break my useless gadget in a feeble effort to prove something to Spotify.
I'm running around the neighborhood, and I'm thinking about all of the suffering we've been enduring over these last few weeks and months, and it just sucks.
I start crying.
I want to help, but I don't feel like I can, so I just start to cry because I feel so utterly helpless.
Everything is broken now and it sucks.
I want some sense of normalcy back in my life but I fear that I'll never find it.
I want to scream.
But I can't because then my roommates will hear me.
Or my neighbors.
Time to shut down.
Time to rebuild?
I'm not sure.
Everything will suck for a while, but it's OK.
p.s. A lot of you have been transitioning from in-person meetings to out-of-office meetings, and probably have a lot more free time to create stuff. Try video.
I just put together this 3,000+ word guide on how to get started in video during your quarantine. None of it requires you to leave your house. Use it.